I'am back from a day of study at home and I gonna study another three four hours tonight. After a series of thinking with myself, last night. Whoever say study is easy, most probably not studying the same thing like I am.

A day of study at home is just bullshit, I only study merely a few hours.

Yesterday night went hougang for dinner and had some drinking session over there. After that proceed to pub with brudders for second round. As usual, countless jug of beers. Mug will never never be empty like how I wish to. The poor ass me was hoot by someone with countless mug of beers, piece of mango cakes, agar agar jelly and sweet can long-gan. My stomach is bloated till I can stand no more and so I went in the toilet and had small mer-lion session myself. I seriously don't want to down so many beers but I was force to when people come round and round with the " CHEERS, CHEERS, CHEERRS" . I could not do anything but to down those beers like what others did. No more complaint. I want to apply leave for the next drinking session if I can. Never ask me why.
Drinking is to enjoy and so " DRINK AND DIE, NEVER ASK WHY" is the quote I gotten from drinkers. Stomach is feeling empty now. HUNGRY.

I have no one to blame, but myself. Who ask me not to listen to my mother’s advice to study hard when I was in school. Now I am also in school but there is no one to discipline you and now I am struggling with my upcoming exams. Whatever situation I am in now, I hope I can cope well with everything and not let my parents worry. Will fill in more shit when I get back, I got to rush out of my house now.

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Ok, I slept at 5 in the morning and now I am here to blog. went drinking yesterday with bunch of brudders. I'am so proud of myself not getting drunk by few rock glass of tequila shot and countless jug of beers. yesterday wasn't in any luck in playing games when the punishment is drinking down beer for our thristy throat. yes, I lost games of pool. I was unlucky enough to deal the smallest card in the whole poker card deck ! how sad can it be? I am lucky because I don't have brudders who are those hoot you until you beg tolong when came to drinking. Only 1 guy who call me " M.U " love to see me high or drunk ? He kept on asking me to drink when i can never avoid him through out the enjoyment. He is one who hoot me until I simi lanjiao stars also see kind of person. Ok, I am hungry and I gonna hunt food in my kitchen now. I think I gonna be dead seeing my mum when I go out drink and came home with the shirt full of ciggie smell. I think she gonna give me " I am so going to kneel on durian shell treatment" face. Alright I am so going to miss her now. bye all.

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Have you ever tried to look for something but you can't find it?

Have you ever get youself facing the computer screen almost the whole day?

Have you ever study when it is time to play?

I do. But I'm happy. (:

As late as 1am last night, someone came making polite conversaiton and said " where is everyone ? " i replied the someone " in bed, same place you and i should be! " took me whole ten minutes to figure out why she swear and curse at me.

I DONT WANNA SEE YOUR "You better not deal with them if you dont want me to deal with you" FACE . SCUMMMMMM

I HAVE TO COVER THREEEEE MOUDULE IN TWO WEEKS ! IT GONNA PREPARE ME WHEN I AM ON THE BATTLE FIELD.

PATIENCE is the key !
I am waiting to hoot someone until he shout tolong.
mess with best, die like the rest.

woot, just finish my lunch and i am very full now. i ate all i can to inflate my balls to a size huge enough for me to dare ask the magical ‘ai sio kan mai’ question. PEACE

Alone with my mind, which will not shut up
which needs distraction
This is boredom
this is torture
this is truth.

I remember as a 7 year old boy, the highlight of my day is seeing my parents/guardians outside school gate after class. Then they will brings me to the nearby provision shop to get snacks.
life was simple. NO decisions to make. NO obligations.
BUT now... life is still simple. simply fucked-up.

=(

life is like a stroll in the park. sometimes, there are fresh flower to smell. sometimes, there are frogs coming from nowhere to beat. sometimes, there is plain nothing to see.

i guess it's obvious by now that i am struggling.

• struggling to fix my life
• struggling on my school work
• struggling struggling struggling

i want to sleep.

taken on monday

i missed out school today and its the last lesson! i am dead, i will have to study myself without the exam tips from the lecturer ! so sad. i so wanted to go school today but yesterday night i went drinking till 3plus 4 in the morning! i wokeup by my alarm clock at 7.30 and i went back to sleep after that and my mum came knocking my room! i wokeup and i saw its raining and i went back to sleeep till noon. lololol. went town for dinner and went back home. TIRING. . . . .. ... face to face, side to side ' sweet.
where are you?

friday - a superb long day in school till 5pm! screw it. met cheryl awhile at bugis. i gotten a mini momo i saw and she gave me a chocolate lollipop? LOL. after that she went off so i went home! sleeeeep. was so tired..

saturday, superb nice weather ! rainy day! haha. evening, went to meet cheryl at pasir ris for awhile also she pass me a box with four cute cupcakes! LOL. then then took train with her, she alight at tampines and i went tiong bahru meet up with guys slack! went off to hougang at 11plus and had supper there and went off at 2am. home sweet home.

sunday, woke up early in the morning and head to temple to pray my late grandfather with my families. after that, went great world city for shopping. had kenny roger for lunch and walk walk walk and home home home. tireddddddddddd.......... byebye

THANK YOU CHERYL! HEHE

I gave school a missed today. cheers

din went to school today. rot at home doing the freaking marketing project and yes it is done! finally..... but i think it was all crap so well...... jus hope for a pass. hahaaaaaaa. if the one who mark is kind enough it wil give my work an A. borinnggggg laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

• wokeup at 7.30am
• took a shower at 7.40am for 20minuts
• changed for 10minutes and went out at 8.10am
• waited bus for 10minutes
• trained to school and it took 35minutes
• waited 5min for kenneth
• had rotiprata and icemilo for breakfast
• lesson starts at 9 but i was late for 30minutes
• felt sleepy
• stay in class during break 10-10.30am
• do work after break 10.30 - 12pm
• lesson ended at 12pm
• had seafood kueytiao and banana milkshake for lunch@thaiexpress
• crap after lunch till 2.15pm
• reached home at 3pm
• nap at 3.30pm
• wokeup at 7pm
• bascially doing nothing till now ( 11.16pm)

CRONGRATS THOSE WHO DO WELL IN THEIR GEO O LEVEL CHINESE. CHEERS.

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MONDAY BLUES.

seriously i've got no idea what am i posting, its just kinda random so be it. hehe. my school is ending soon, exams is coming soon. i must be a mugger for now and not a slacker but do you think i can do it? haha. yes i can be a mugger for time being i guess? heheheheheheheheeeeee. boringgggggggggg. i love her. i love you. hohooo

you can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life, wohoosee that girl watch that scene, dig in the dancing queen. friday nights and the lights are low, look for a place to go ? where they play the right music, getting in the swing? ANYBODY COULD BE THAT GIRL, NIGHT IS YOUNG AND THE MUSIC HIGHS. EVERYTHING IS FINE AND IM INT HE MOOD FOR A DANCE. SHAKE IT SHAKE IT SHAKE IT !

i din step onto the dance floor for a long time, anyone? ? ? ?

have been drinking for two days straight. im weak now as compared to last time drinking almost everyday. im off.

i am hungered for your text. seeyou in the morning with big brown eye

Ok, I think is time to start revising my work. From the start of the three moudule till now I not yet revise any of them, how sad is it. Sometime I wanted to revise but when I flip through the notes I find it quite wordy so the sight of wordy notes can turn me off. My bad if i failed any of this 3 moudule. Well, I guess is time for me to wake up because school is ending real soon! Two or three weeks more ! and a week or two short little break to let us prepare for our exam. I've not done anything about my project and the deadline is august13 which is 9 more days. cool, shall work on it soon, real soon. happy day, sad day. choose one.

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